Monday, October 12, 2009
Today was a really awesome Sunday, it's been awhile since I had a Sunday like this. I thank God for everything, for today, even for the smallest thing like having an awesome breakfast.
I just realised that I had posted a lot of entries about my nightmares and dreams, but they mostly occurred during this semester break of mine. And after yesterday's nightmare, I realised I had been having a lot of nightmares recently, and they are VERY scary. That made me ponder, ponder about the fact that why do I have all these nightmares? I realised I have a lot of fears deep inside me. Just too much, and it keeps getting bigger and bigger till like it's eating me up. But somehow I don't know what actually I'm fearful of. I do know a handful of those fears, but, I don't know.
Yesterday's nightmare was, I can say one of the scariest nightmares I ever had. It totally spoilt my noon as I woke up in the noon, and I could still remember the details briefly. It's simply like this...
It was set in some place where it's full of people I know, or I could say that they are my friends. But the thing is that, they all are against me and I have no idea why. There are a lot of them and they were like trying to take or pin me down. I was literaly wrestling them all. Though I had the strength to overcome them, but they just kept coming, as if they wouldn't get tired. Hence that made me really tired, till an extent that I could no longer resist them. Then I out of no way or reason, I used my last resort, God. I remember holding onto one "friend's" shoulders and I just talked about God. I can't remember exactly what I said, but I know clearly it's and it's about God. Then things just started to get better, and in no time, I woke up.
That's about it. And after talking to Venetia about it. I realised these are fears deep inside me. To think of it, I have a whole list of fears, but I don't think I'll list them all out. They are rather personal and sensitive to share. Alright then, I've got work tomorrow. So cya peeps. =)
Signing off at 12.21am
Shawn
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